You are my everything

I want you to know that since the day you make me fall for you, I've fallen deeply in love with you. There are no words to express the feelings I feel in my heart and I never thought that you would came into my life and how you make every day so special to me. You are my life, my heart, my soul, my abang, my baby boo 💖

You are my bestfriend, my one true love, my one and only. I love you more than today than I did yesterday and I'll love you more tomorrow than I did today. Loving you is the only thing that makes life worth living. Day by day, my love for you becomes overwhelming and I can't handle it when I don't see or even talk to you everyday. 

I was scared to love you at first, out of fear that you would hurt me, but I did and it's the best thing I've ever done. Now, the only fear I have is waking up and realizing it's all a dream. You are the most wonderful thing that has ever happened to me. Each moment that you and I spend together is so magical that I catch myself smiling for no reason at all. I thought I would never find a love as strong as ours, but now we've found each other I know that you are the person that I want to spend the rest of my life with, the person I want to marry, the person I want to have babies with and the person I want to grow old with. 

Abang, you complete me. You make my life so amazing and I don't know how to repay you but to love you as much as you love me. The world is a better place to be because of you. You make me feel beautiful. Thank you for giving me so much more than I ever could have wanted. You are the only man that I want to share my life with. I could never imagine what it would be like if we were going to lose each other. I don't wanna think about it. It makes me scared whenever I think of it. All I want to think is you. 

You are the love of my life. I love you and I always will until the day I die. Hopefully, when the day comes, I will still have you by my side and yours will be the face that I see. 

When I'm older I'll look back at the ways we argued about things that were so insignificant and we'll laugh and know that our love is strong enough to overcome every argument. I just want you to know that I'm thankful that you came into my life and I will love you till the end of my days. My love for you will never fade, I'm still crazy about you abang. 

I love you from the bottom of my heart ❤️❤️❤️

I love you I miss you

"I love you" means that I accept you for the person that you are and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you even when you're in a bad mood or too tired to do the things I want to do. It means loving you when you're down, not just when you're fun to be with. "I love you" means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them, asking in return that you do not judge me for mine. It means I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love you enough not to let go. It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly and hoping you feel the same way for me ☺️💖

I just wanted to say that I am very grateful to have you in my life and thank you for staying even though you have seen me at my worst. The memories that we created together are full of fun, joy, laughter and a little of sadness but that what makes it more wonderful in this relationship. There will be more ups and downs on the upcoming days. So please bare with it babe hahahaha. I hope we will not fight or argue with each other anymore after this (well most of the fight, I'm the one who caused it hehe. Sorry boo🙏🏻) I love you so much 😘💕

I miss you like crazy you know, missing you at night and day. Life has all the pain without you abang. I don't want to smile without you by my side. That is true tho. Come back and give me back my smile. You know that I only can smile and laugh when you're around. I miss your warmth and I miss your care, I miss your kissed, the kissed on the forehead, I miss the time when you were always there, I miss being with you abang, I miss those moments in the dark, I miss your smile and that silent spark, waiting to see you soon my love, waiting to hold your hands, please come back soon my love. You know that I am missing you. Waiting to see you! 🙆🏻❤️❤️❤️

Relationship

There is no right or wrong in a relationship. It just you who made the choice on what kind of relationship you want. Either its a crazy one or cute lovey dovey one. Some people prefer both. Some other people prefer either one of them. But as for me I prefer a relationship that you can understand each other in every way. A relationship that you can be as crazy as you want and you can be your true self when you are around them. 

I felt so lucky when I met my boyfriend. He was one of a kind. I am so happy when he's around. I can be as crazy as I want and I can be the most clingy girlfriend ever 😂 he understands me more than anyone else did. Whenever I'm with him, I will act different. In a good way. I smile more and laugh more. With you, I can drop the fake smile and put the real one. I dont feel hurt and alone when I'm with you. Instead, I feel safe and loved ❤️ you're easy to talk to and you listen to me when I start telling you something. 

I thank God every night since I found you. You came into my life when everything seemed so dark but you provided the light to find my way. I never thought that someone could love me like you do, but guess what? I love you that much too. I feel as if I'm walking over cloud just thinking about you. You make my life complete. With you I wouldn't mind being a fool for the rest of my life 😂 we did stupid stuff together and I really loved it. I love you so much and I know you love me too 💕 I meant every word I said. I love you, I would do anything in my power to make you a great person, outstanding lover and supportive partner 😘💋

Hurt

I’ve spent my whole life trying so hard not to be vulnerable. The idea is terrifying. Why would you let someone in like that? Why would you give someone every opportunity to hurt you? I never understood it until I was uncomfortable being alone. I never knew what it was like to fall until I met you. I want to share every fear, doubt, anxiety attack, depressive episode and sad memory with you without being expected to or expecting you to do the same. I want my soul to intermingle with yours in a way it’s never known. I want you to get to know me in a way nobody else ever has. I want you to see my darkness. I want to be vulnerable around you. Please don’t hurt me.

Love?

Okay so here goes part 2 where the best part happend.

I've been avoiding him for the past few days. I replied his messages late and yeah I don't want him to keep contacting me as usual. I do that because I don't like him but he said that he likes me. Well obviously I don't believe that because we barely known each other. We never seen each other and we never ever had a conversation before this and all the sudden he said to me that he likes me. Do you think I would believe that? Hell no man. Nobody fall in love in just a glance. We need to get to know each other first and let the time decided next. I don't want a serious relationship because I am afraid if something happen and it will turn not as what I wanted to. 

Ever since he got my number and my "wechat id" he kept contacting me. Sometimes I felt okay with it but sometimes I felt it's kinda not okay. He kept saying that he likes me all the times. It really annoyed me at first. Because who the hell would believe that? But...... theres something about him that makes me fall for him. I set a limit, I would give him the answer in 4 months from that day he express his feelings towards me. But the thing is I lost guys, I freakin lossstt on my own rule. The effort that he shows me is really something ✨

The one thing I liked about him is he knows how to talk to the elderly. Any guy that can join in my family is something to me. That is how he captured my heart. He is talkative guys. I swear to you, everyday with him either he will tell me a story of his past, his life, his friends or I will tell him my past, my life and my friends. There are so much things to talk about. It will never gets old. I really loves him so much. I promise that I will cherish his life with my cuteness and I will be there for him no matter what happen. I wanna grow old with him. I don't want anybody else in this world. He is my everything 🙆🏻💕 Thank you abang 😘

You

I asked if you were afraid to lose me and you looked at me and shook your head. 
I asked if you still loved me the same and you smiled and nodded. 
You kissed me as if that was supposed to convince me. I guess I always saw love in a different way because I looked at you and was always scared of missing the way your hands felt and that feeling never went away. Some days it was stronger than others and I tried my best to remind you that your smile was the greatest smile I had ever seen and that it had tattooed itself in my head because you were the greatest thing I’ve ever seen and I felt you deserved to know that everyday because you were something I wanted every day

Who are you?

It has been a while since I last blog didn't I? Well, I am about to share an amazing story on how I met this one guy that I never knew would be so important to me hehe. Ohh yaa btw, yesterday was my birthday! 🎉🎈🎂🎁 Happy 18th birthday to me! Not that happy actually, a week before my birthday I just found out that I got chicken pox hm 😔 That is so freakin' sad. But it doesn't matter because I'm all good now except theres scars all over my body and that just make me moreeeee sad. But yaa I'm cool with it. I know I will recover soon because "someone" always said that to me hehe 😆

Soo yaa here goes the story 🚶🏻‍♀️
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The very first time I saw him was at Ika's house. By that time Ika buat open house soo ya I was there with Hanis. But when I saw him I asked Ika "who the hell is that guy? Is it your abg angkat" because he looks older than us to me. Ika said that was his school friend and we are on the same age. I was shock asfug hahaha because he did not look like 16 at all. He has beard and moustache that's why I thought he was 20 something. Soo that is my very first impression towards him. I don't know him at all and I never saw his face before soo yaa hehe. Hanis knew him because they went to primary school together so obviously I am the only who did not know him. That is not bad isn't? hahahaha sorry boo 😘 ohh yaaa and not forget to mention he also did not know me too. Soo fair and square righttt? Hehe

Our second time jumpa pulak masa at my house. When my parents were away and just me and opah were staying at the house. And Ika decided to accompany us so she slept at my house for 3 days and 2 nights. On the first night she called Dondo to come over and study together because by that time we were still on our exam. Ika told me that Dondo will bring one of his friend. I was okay with it because I felt like the more the merrier right. Around 8 something they arrived. And I welcomed them for sure. So here goes the best part. I was so bad in Maths and he's like so good in Maths so I asked him to teach me. Banyaknye so 😂😂 hahahahaha. And ya he taught me in Maths it was pretty good tho. Ika and Dondo asyik usik dia cakap when he taught me he will be like so nice but when with them he will be on the opposite way. I dont know about that because I dont know him. 

When they got back home, me and Ika we went all naked 🙈 *jk* hahahaha we were just chillin on bed and then out of sudden this unknown person just added me on Wechat *budak wechat sangarttzzzz* I was like hesitate to approve or not. Ika was the one who approve that unknown guy for me. Who knows that unknown guy was Dondo friend. Since then we've been contacting each other. Taaadaaaa! Okay I'm done for PART 1

Upcoming story will be share soon! Toodles xoxo! 💋

He came

Dah lama tak mimpi arwah. Tadi tertido kejap sebab petang tadi penat sangat buat macam-macam. Gembiranya dapat jumpa dia even sekejap dan dalam mimpi. Terjaga dari tidur terus nangis. Sedih sangat. Dalam mimpi tu dia handsome sangat. Dia pakai baju putih. Muka dia Ya Allah bersihnya. Sejuk hati tengok dia. Berlari aku pegi dekat dia lepastu peluk dia. Aku tanya "kenapa lama sangat tak datang jumpa aku. Aku rindu tau tak?" Aku terus nangis. Macam biasa dia akan cakap "alolo siannye dia, ni aku dah ada kan janganla nangis lagi. Aku datang bkn nk tgok hang nangis" hmm 😢 

Kita jalan2 dekat taman. Aku cerita macam-macam dekat hang. Rasa macam real sangat. Rasa macam tak nak bangun dari tidur. Rasa macam nk terus bermimpi lepastu ikut hang. Punya rindulah aku kat hang sampai mcmtu sekali hahaha. Hang banyak tanya and senyum. Seronok dapat jumpa hang, bila aku cerita benda pelik-pelik hang macam biasa akan panggil aku bongok 😂 Yer bongok tu dah mcm nickname aku dah kat hg. 

Masa tu tiba-tiba hang cakap hang dah nak kena pegi. Aku terus takde mood and masam muka. Before hang pegi hang pesan banyak sgt benda. Hang cakap "solat jangan tinggal, pakai elok2 jgn seksi2 sangat. Kalau sayang aku tutup aurat betul2. Nnti kita jumpa kat syurga ye. Jangan salah pilih kawan sebab nanti kalau salah pilih orang tu yg akan jatuhkan hg. Jangan mudah percaya cakap orang. Kalau nk cari pengganti aku pilih betul2. Jgn pilih sebarangan. Tak semua orang ikhlas mcm aku hahaha. Ingat tu tau. Aku tak nak tengok hg kecewa. Aku nak hg bahagia. Jangan sedih2. Aku lagi sedih. Jaga diri elok2. Jangan malas makan. Hg tu makan pun kena paksa. Ingat tau. Aku sayang hang. Selamat tinggal. Assalammualaikum" lepastu hg terus hilang and aku pun terbangun dari tidur. 

Bangun dari tidur je aku terus menangis. Aku boleh hafal semua yg hg ckp tu. Sebab aku rasa macam terngiang-ngiang suara hg. Aku gembira sangat dapat tengok senyuman hang, gelak ketawa hang even sekejap sangat. I miss you so much Fakhrul 😞😞 

Bond of Love and the Truth

A very loving couple had been married for over 10 years without any child and it was becoming their 11th year. Steve and Sarah stayed with each other and greatly hoped that they will have a child before their 11th year of marriage runs out because they were under persuasion from friends and family members to get a divorce. But they couldn’t let go because of the strong bond of love between them. Months passed and one day, while Dave was returning from work, he saw his wife walking down the road with a man.

Months passed and one day, while Dave was returning from work, he saw his wife walking down the road with a man. The man had his arms around her neck and they looked very happy. For over a week, he saw the same man with his wife at various places and one evening while Dave was returning from work he saw the man drop her off at the house after giving her a kiss on the cheek. Dave was angry and sad but he didn’t spoke of it with his wife.

Two days later after a hectic day at work, Dave was taking water with a glass jug from the dispenser when the phone rang.  He picked it up and the person said, ”Hello dear, I’ll be coming to your house this evening to see you as promised.” Dave hung up the phone. It was a male voice and he was sure the person was the man he had always seen his wife with. He suddenly became shaky with the thought that he has lost his wife to another man. The glass jug fell from his hand and shattered into pieces.

His wife came running into the room asking, ”Is everything okay?” In anger, he gave his wife a push and she fell. She wasn’t moving or getting up. Dave then realized that she fell where he broke the glass jug. A large piece of glass had pierced her. He felt her breath, pulse, and heartbeat but there she lay lifeless. In a total confusion, he saw an envelope in her hand. He took it, opened it and was shocked by its content – it was a letter.  It read

“My loving husband, words can not express how I feel so I had to write it down. I have been going to see a doctor for over a week and I wanted to be sure before I give you the news.The doctor confirmed it that I am pregnant with a twin and our baby is due 2 months from now.  The same doctor is my long lost brother whom I lost contact with after our marriage. He has promised to take care of me and our baby and give us the best without collecting a dime.
He also promised to have dinner with us today.  Thanks for staying by my side.
Your loving wife."

The letter fell from his hand.  There was a knock at the door and the same man he had seen with his wife came in and said, ”Hello Dave, I suppose I’m right. I am Max, the brother of your wife”  Suddenly, Max noticed his sister lying in a pool of her blood. He rushed her to the hospital and she was in a coma. She had lost her twins.

Moral: We should not be too quick to take unnecessary actions in our relationship or marriage when we haven’t questioned our partner or spouse on what we saw or heard about them.  We all have our faults. We shouldn’t be too fast to judge others. Not everything you see, hear or believe about someone is true. Always learn to control yourself under any condition or situation, irrespective of what you’ve heard or seen.