I love you I miss you

"I love you" means that I accept you for the person that you are and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you even when you're in a bad mood or too tired to do the things I want to do. It means loving you when you're down, not just when you're fun to be with. "I love you" means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them, asking in return that you do not judge me for mine. It means I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love you enough not to let go. It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly and hoping you feel the same way for me ☺️💖

I just wanted to say that I am very grateful to have you in my life and thank you for staying even though you have seen me at my worst. The memories that we created together are full of fun, joy, laughter and a little of sadness but that what makes it more wonderful in this relationship. There will be more ups and downs on the upcoming days. So please bare with it babe hahahaha. I hope we will not fight or argue with each other anymore after this (well most of the fight, I'm the one who caused it hehe. Sorry boo🙏🏻) I love you so much 😘💕

I miss you like crazy you know, missing you at night and day. Life has all the pain without you abang. I don't want to smile without you by my side. That is true tho. Come back and give me back my smile. You know that I only can smile and laugh when you're around. I miss your warmth and I miss your care, I miss your kissed, the kissed on the forehead, I miss the time when you were always there, I miss being with you abang, I miss those moments in the dark, I miss your smile and that silent spark, waiting to see you soon my love, waiting to hold your hands, please come back soon my love. You know that I am missing you. Waiting to see you! 🙆🏻❤️❤️❤️

Relationship

There is no right or wrong in a relationship. It just you who made the choice on what kind of relationship you want. Either its a crazy one or cute lovey dovey one. Some people prefer both. Some other people prefer either one of them. But as for me I prefer a relationship that you can understand each other in every way. A relationship that you can be as crazy as you want and you can be your true self when you are around them. 

I felt so lucky when I met my boyfriend. He was one of a kind. I am so happy when he's around. I can be as crazy as I want and I can be the most clingy girlfriend ever 😂 he understands me more than anyone else did. Whenever I'm with him, I will act different. In a good way. I smile more and laugh more. With you, I can drop the fake smile and put the real one. I dont feel hurt and alone when I'm with you. Instead, I feel safe and loved ❤️ you're easy to talk to and you listen to me when I start telling you something. 

I thank God every night since I found you. You came into my life when everything seemed so dark but you provided the light to find my way. I never thought that someone could love me like you do, but guess what? I love you that much too. I feel as if I'm walking over cloud just thinking about you. You make my life complete. With you I wouldn't mind being a fool for the rest of my life 😂 we did stupid stuff together and I really loved it. I love you so much and I know you love me too 💕 I meant every word I said. I love you, I would do anything in my power to make you a great person, outstanding lover and supportive partner 😘💋

Hurt

I’ve spent my whole life trying so hard not to be vulnerable. The idea is terrifying. Why would you let someone in like that? Why would you give someone every opportunity to hurt you? I never understood it until I was uncomfortable being alone. I never knew what it was like to fall until I met you. I want to share every fear, doubt, anxiety attack, depressive episode and sad memory with you without being expected to or expecting you to do the same. I want my soul to intermingle with yours in a way it’s never known. I want you to get to know me in a way nobody else ever has. I want you to see my darkness. I want to be vulnerable around you. Please don’t hurt me.

Love?

Okay so here goes part 2 where the best part happend.

I've been avoiding him for the past few days. I replied his messages late and yeah I don't want him to keep contacting me as usual. I do that because I don't like him but he said that he likes me. Well obviously I don't believe that because we barely known each other. We never seen each other and we never ever had a conversation before this and all the sudden he said to me that he likes me. Do you think I would believe that? Hell no man. Nobody fall in love in just a glance. We need to get to know each other first and let the time decided next. I don't want a serious relationship because I am afraid if something happen and it will turn not as what I wanted to. 

Ever since he got my number and my "wechat id" he kept contacting me. Sometimes I felt okay with it but sometimes I felt it's kinda not okay. He kept saying that he likes me all the times. It really annoyed me at first. Because who the hell would believe that? But...... theres something about him that makes me fall for him. I set a limit, I would give him the answer in 4 months from that day he express his feelings towards me. But the thing is I lost guys, I freakin lossstt on my own rule. The effort that he shows me is really something ✨

The one thing I liked about him is he knows how to talk to the elderly. Any guy that can join in my family is something to me. That is how he captured my heart. He is talkative guys. I swear to you, everyday with him either he will tell me a story of his past, his life, his friends or I will tell him my past, my life and my friends. There are so much things to talk about. It will never gets old. I really loves him so much. I promise that I will cherish his life with my cuteness and I will be there for him no matter what happen. I wanna grow old with him. I don't want anybody else in this world. He is my everything 🙆🏻💕 Thank you abang 😘